Thought I was about to be shot by Cupid

Got hit with hot ass shells

Feeling fuckin stupid

She gave off a warm gentle smile

The vibe tho said no, that’s a disguise

Can’t say I was blind to the signs

I wanted to help heal what was damaged

Ended up hurting myself

The bitch was savage

Reading what I felt were my last rights

“I hate love” I screamed

Chills ran through me, I shuddered

When I heard a voice say “you know you’re my daughter, right” “chin up, chest out”!

My daddy exclaimed in my mind

Had to fix my crown, I almost let that shit fall down

Digging deep into my soul (the pain) I had to surrender to it

So I can learn the blessings that came with the lessons

Surrounded by my own enemy (ME)

Looking into the crevices of every single memory

Pains stabbing at my heart

Too much to bare stumbling and tripping

Never falling was the most beautiful part

All of the time spent being backstabbed, lied to, used, ran dry, unfulfilled, dissatisfied, tongue tied, sleepless nights, crying eyes, wondering why I wasn’t good enough

Replaced with self love I didn’t even know wasn’t existent

All of the time I really thought I loved myself

Until I realized had I been loving on myself the way I was others

I would have known they never deserved my name to utter

Since allowing the storms in and learning the clouds

I see why the sunshine is so beautiful now

How it makes my chakras shine so bright

I attract the wounded because of my light

Today I understand that it was never about me, but what was needed

That was inside of me you see

A gift and a curse

Yet I embrace it

I’m more than what your eyes perceive

An enigma of healing energy